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I was wondering...

Jen on October 5, 2009

 So I was wondering, does anyone ever struggle with their thought life?  I mean, when someone has offended you and you keep thinking about it, or you wonder if someone is mad at you because they treat you "differently" than they usually do?  Or you think of some past sin or lack of discretion and you dwell on it?  I think a lot about what Paul said in Eph 6:12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.  I believe Satan wants me to dwell on those things that are not holy, admirable and praiseworthy, so that it brings me down and makes me ineffective.  I find that fighting the battle in my mind is exhausting.  No wonder after that verse, the ones following are about the armor of God.  Mikal Kildal, our college Sunday School teacher (of which we help facilitate - no I am not trying to feel younger by being in a younger age class :)) talked about living as though we are not forgiven!  I carry my sin around.  Jesus hears our heartbroken pleas of sorrow and He answers us readily with forgiveness and then He forgets!!  Oh how many times I brow beat myself to death.  Jesus doesn't remember my sin, why do I?  Why do I dwell on what has already been forgiven.  Sure, there might be consequences for my sin - but not guilt.  So I was reading Face Book and Isaac Pittman wrote - But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9   Thank you, Jesus, for the hope YOU give,!!